My sweet pumpkin blues.

Oooh honey I had the blues yesterday. And there wasn't a damn thing I could do to stop that storm. I was pissed off at the whole situation because it was the weekend! This was MY Saturday and I wanted to have my usual fun creative energy and fly around like a fairy sprinkling my magical pink glitter everywhere. Yeah right. My body felt heavy, I couldn't hear my soul for the life of me and my heart refused to talk to me. What the hell is a girl to do? Surrender. Yeah, so I surrendered and gave it what it wanted....to be alone. I had nothing to give, not even to myself and I had to respect that and allow myself to get filled back up with my Prana (your life force / the spirit energy of God within all of us). YES I was uncomfortable with all those emotions going through me...sadness, regret, loneliness, anger. But I kept thinking of my blog and how I always write "allow your emotions to pass through you when they show up". Grrrr...why did I write that? Now I HAD to follow my own advice. Silly old Fem Chic, she's such a Beloved Muse :). But I did it,  I gave into what was already happening and sunk into the moment. Ahhh... that actually feels a little bit better. There was a lot less pressure once I gave in.

I woke up feeling refreshed and ladylike. I still needed to be gentle with myself. But I had survived the storm. And I know there will be more...that's life. And then I found this glorious photo. If you know me, you know I adore Starbucks, and it's not the brand "Starbucks" it's the ambiance of the café. It could be any café as long as they are playing jazz, there are hardwood floors, the ambiance is joyful, there's a light chitter chatter and a happy buzz from everyone getting their favorite coffee. Mine is the the Pumpkin Spiced Latte. It's a seasonal treat but of course I wrote to Starbucks to tell them to reconsider and make it a year-round treat. It told them I was the Pumpkin Muse / Goddess and to listen up here before somebody gets hurts. (I can come off as a very dangerous criminal especially if I am wearing my motorcycle boots). Okay I didn't really say that but let's just hope the Latte Goddess hears my prayer.

My darlings, it is going to be fabulous fall full of gorgeous earth tones, crisp cool nights, and warm striped scarves (and my favorite pink mittens). Here's to being complicated emotional human beings yet still finding a way to laugh, dance, and keep falling in love with life...and the other complicated emotional human beings. Touché bébé.


*photo: Virgo the Poet

xo

Rashaan Cruzé

www.rashaancruze.com

"You wander from room to room, searching for the diamond necklace that is already around your neck". - Rumi

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